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June 1st, 2004

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May 31st, 2004

11:34 pm - moms comp. is fixed!!! woah! my moms computer is fixed! hurray hurray. cept now it has a mind of its own...and it puts caps lock on when it dosnt need to be...and it sends random blank IM's...yeah its crazzyness...and its being kinda slow...im hoping its just being dum tonite! so i kinda like marc. isnt that crazy. i think its weird since we havent met in person...but he is soooo sweet, and he is funny...and its not like hes sum phsyco...cause hes dom's friend. but yeah...so i have a pretty big crush on him. and i told him today...then he put an away message up saying "thinking about some stuff" i hope i didnt scarre him. he said he has always liked me thou. we talked on the phone for the first time today. hes gotta cute voice. so friday im going to katies! YAY DEGRASSI! im sooooo excited! and micha and allison will be there. then saturday i wanna go see Harry Potter...maybe Mitch will come... ewww i needa shave my legs deigo luna is in the new YM! and this is a quote from an editor "Yes, he's the kind of hot you can stare at for hours, and no matter how bad the movie is (ahem, Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights), you still watch." WHICH IS CRAZY! CUS HAVANA NIGHTS ROCKED! oh we saw Mean Girls tonite...its my 3rd time. lol. it was fun...i like megs friend ashley...she came! hehe... hmmm im getting tired and i might go to work with my mom tomorrow...since marc will be at school so i cant talk to him...lol... LOVE YA'LL *em* Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: nothing...moms sleeping i think

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01:05 pm - gotta be short cant be on lj very much.... mom dosnt like it! cus i cant figure out how to make it friends only! MICAH HELP! woah degrassi party friday woah party at sals today...lol...sum family thing...and sarah is here! yay yay uhm....what else we spent the night at sals it was fun watched plesentville... weird movie i will put my list of things i wanna do before i die on later cus im gonna get in trouble if mom sees me on this ciao Current Mood: awake Current Music: Full House and the Vacum

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May 30th, 2004

03:30 pm - ugh my dad wont even hear me out! i asked him if i could go to the fall out boy concert and he just said NO! cus he said the whole area where skrappys is, is drug infested! thats so retarted...because i would pay for the ticket...since its only 10 dollars AND i would prolly be going with alyx...and her mother would prolly be there UGH UGH UGH he is way to protective...i wish i was with my mom that week :screams: they are my FAVORITE band...:( :tears: Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Fall Out Boy

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01:14 pm - blech headache and stomache and mad at mom... yuck! yeah so i went to church today. it was ok. i liked most the songs we sang. we were in the serive not the youth. yeah, and the sermon was prety good. oh and i finally met the infamous aaron! woah, hes a cute one...no not even cute...hes a HOT one! so now im home. i didnt feel up to going to arbys with sarah and meg. i ate sum of my dads quizno sandwhich. it was ok...kinda made my stomache start to hurt. im going to sals tonite...woo fun (sarcasim) im pissed at my mom...so i doubt its gonna be much fun! but sarah will be there...so maybe it will...whooooooo knows! my mom isnt getting me till 5 so i have 3 1/2 hours of doing NOTHINGGGGGGGG! yuck i didnt see micah at church today...i did see katie, syd, brian and charlie thou. but no micah :( and no ben :-/ "tag your it...kick the can...oops i hear my mama calling...gotta go...man i loved her so" ^^^guess the song^^^ oh im also stealing morgs question of the day thing... Q. If you had a week left to live, and you could get places like reallllly quick...what would you do for all the 7 days? my answer would have to be Day 1. Fly to PA and meet marc and see dom. tell dom how i feel...kiss him...prolly kiss marc just for the heck of it...and hang out with them allllll day Day 2. Go to NYC. see a play on Broadway, ride in a horse carrige thru Central Park...take a lil trip to the village...and do all the "New Yorky" stuff Day 3. Go to california...learn how to surf...then surf (or attempt to surf) all day!! Day 4. Go spend the day in Disneyland and California Adventure with ALLLLLL my friends Day 5. Go to Phoniex and spend the day with my sister...a good day with shopping, food, and heart to hearts...lol Day 6. Have a pool party, invite everyone i was ever close with and even people i barely knew...hug everyone! and have at least a 20 min talk with everyone. prolly an hour or two talk with sarah, meg, rachel, morgan, kaylee, and domninque Day 7. Get my family together spend time with them. love and hug my parents...cry...just be together as a family... yeah thats most likley what i'd do :sigh: k im gonna go call mi mama... CIAO Current Mood: lazy Current Music: nascar...racing...

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09:56 am - today ello-hay... its almost 10...meg and sarah are coming to get me at like 10:30ish. then we are heading off to Pantano Christian Church. we went there last week...the music is so good! we arnt going into the youth part this week. not till next week...when carol gets back! the youth will be fun...cus micah is in there, as is katie, jessica, charlie, brian...and ben. woah...ben... anywho after church im coming back here to mah dads for a while and getting mah stuff together. my mom will come get me...maybe we will go back to her house for a little...or maybe i can convince her to buy me a dress and a bathing suit from target. and then we are going to sals tonite...sarah is hopefully going. i think she would like his house...all my friends do. there is so much stuff to go thru, and his dog is crazzy...everyone loves her (bella...the dog)! lol oh my gosh...i forgot to write down my dream i had the other night...i was spending the night at sarahs when i had this dream, i always have weird dreams when im ova there...here goes DREAM - first off it was my family over at my dads. and it was christmas...but it didnt feel like it at all. then we like appeared at a concert at skrappys. it was me and sarah there. and it was erics band playing. after the concert sarah went to go talk to someone and eric came up to me and hugged me and such. i was all "good job...etc" and we hugged blah blah and then i asked where shawn was...cus it was weird he wasnt there to support eric and taylor. eric was all "didnt you hear...shawn died" i was like really are u kidding..blah blah. eric was all..."yes im kidding...he is in the hospital thou" and i asked why and eric replied "a little to much pot got to him". then me and sarah appeared in her room...we were sleeping...but then i woke up and her house was like turned into a castle...from like midevil times or somthing...and the hospital was were megs room is...so i went in there and a nurse that looked like andrus mom was giving shawn his breakfast. then i asked shawn if he was okay and what not and he was all yeah im fine...and started cracking up. so i asked him if he would like to see sarah and he was all i would LOVEEEEE to see sarah. so i went back into sarahs room to wake her up, but insted of blankets on her she had like 3 doors laying on her. but i told her shawn was in the hospital so she said she will go in there soon. then i appeared in "the chalk room" it was a room FULL of chalkboards...andrew was in there and we were just drawing on the chalkboards. then we appeared at my old house in the garage...and my mom was giving toys to kim and steph cus they needed them to go to texas with the winklers...and i screamed noooo dont give them toys. my mom was like stop being so rude. i was like you dont even know what these girls did too us...then sarah and meg glared at me. my mom sent me to the chalk room and kim and steph grined and looked proud of themselves. so then i was back in the chalk room writing random stuff on the boards by myself. then meg and andrew walked in LAUGHING! and meg was all it will be so fun tonite. then i said "what will" and she was all andrew is helping me babysit tonite. i was all meg thats not fair i asked u like yesterday. she said i didnt...then i woke up... it was quite odd... k my stomache hurts...i gotta go... ciao Current Mood: okay Current Music: NASCAR

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May 29th, 2004

09:41 pm - tra la la i went to ross today...and then to eeges...with sarah and meg woo then we went to syds party. it was actually fun... lets see who was there: me, sarah, ally, katie, syd, alyssa, conrad (c-rad...cutie!), charlie, brian, tracy, collen, katie, jasmine, alex, ari...and yeah thats about it... eric and david didnt show :( lol oh well but it was fun. i love katie soooo much. that girl is the greatest! hehe...oh and conrad was uhm alysa's soon to be brother in law. he is gonna be a sophmore at sabino...he is spectacular...haha jk...he is cool thou now im drinking a coke...not to sure why thou...cus dark soda hurts my tummy at times...but it should be ok tomorrow is church. we are going to the service thou. then NEXT week will be attending the high school youth part. fun stuff...cus MICHA IS IN THERE! yay...and jessica...and kaite and charlie and brian...fun fun. oh yes and carol and ben. woah its gonna be weird if i see ben tomorrow ::nervousness:: g2g...ciao Current Mood: energetic Current Music: sam levitz commerical

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03:49 pm - at sarahs.. im at sarahs we are going to syds party at like 5 it should be cool erics gonna be there yay yay hmmmmmm we went to ross and to eegees today. mucho fun! we were laughing at everything. they make me laugh so hard to the point i cant breath well im gonna go in Schmegs (megan) room and read ta ta Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: nothing...sarah is sleeping and meg is reading

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11:36 am - i update soooo much i think i updated like 7 times yesterday...yikes...i beat micahas record...lol well i woke up this morning to the phone...around 11ish. it was my mommy. calling with GOOD news. 1. Sal got The Bled poster signed for eric. he will be soooo happy and he will love me forever...YAY FOR SAL! 2. Sal fixed our computer, which makes me so so so so sooo happy...cus now i will have my computer back at my mommys...YAY FOR SAL AGAIN!! uhm...i think thats basically all the good news. oh and tomorrow im spending the night at sals. yay yay im going to syds at 5 tonite...for a PARTAY! yay yay tralalalalalalalala kinda reminds me of that song... "tis the season to be jolly falalalalalalalala" k bye Current Mood: amused Current Music: my dad is doing sumthing in the kitchen

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12:09 am - hmmmmm hmmmmmmm. yeah know what...i hate fighting. ya know what else...i wanna move. yupp sure do...to New York. god i'd give anything to live there. i kno it would be sad leaving everyone...but ahh NYC...i LOVE it there...who knows why. but thats when i was super super superr happy...when i was there. :sigh: to bad we cant afford to go back. which is actually crap...cus my mom is going to Italy this summer, yet i cant take a little trip back to the place that i love more than ever. the real reason is she dosnt wanna go back, cus she has seen it all...gawd...sumtimes she is so selfish... well syds party is tomorrow...im hoping it will be fun. i dont really know...cus i dont hang out with any of those people! but katie will be there...i miss that girl so much! speaking of katie...on june 4 we are going to see harry potter...then have a degrassi party. and i guess jessica and micha will be at this so called " degrassi party" that should be swell...i've never hung out with micha before... wow...i was looking at all michas pictures. that girl is soooo pretty...lol ::jealous:: i think i sorta resemble johnny depp in this pic... hahaha! thats from last december...my hair is no longer looking like that...lol :random: my dad has these 2 little soccer ball hacky sack things...and i chew on one of them...cus im always chewing on things...and yeah thats my story... so i already said this earlier...but i NEEEEEED to babysit... wow isnt he cute i dunno who he is...i found his picture on FTJ a long time ago ya kno wut...im getting tired... i have been reading "The Face On The Milk Carton" all day...its a good book my arm is hurt... :sigh: WOAH! zach just got on...havent talked to him in foreva ta ta Current Mood: amused Current Music: nothing at the momento

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May 28th, 2004

08:28 pm - sad i hate seeing my brother sad. ugh and him and my dad fighting is the worst. gagh! i need people to babysit. i hate sitting on my butt all night. well syds party is tomorrow. i guess it should be fun. mah dad wants sarah to spend the night tomorrow... so sarah do ya wanna? i kno you dont like getting ready at other peoples house thou, so yeah. UGH! i neeeeeeeeeeeed money! i neeeeeeeeeeeed a life! anyone wanna give up babysitting jobs? i'll take 'em. lol ciao Current Mood: okay Current Music: Life With Bonnie....yuck im really starting to dislike tv

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05:02 pm - quick gotta be quick...dads kicking me off comp. uhhhh saw raising helen...its so cute...random...but cute and i dunno why i think its random maybe because i crave attention so i always need to be different (yeah that was sarcasim) gotta go call sum one to see wut time the party is tomorrow ta Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: news

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12:38 pm ahhhh it feels good to forgive and be forgiven... :) WOAH 21 days till MAKE WAVES WOOOOOOO SONBURN!!!!!!!!! gotta finish getting ready ta Current Mood: giddy Current Music: The Best Deciptions - Dashboard Confessional

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11:26 am - Here I Go Again - Casting Crowns insted of he...for me in this song its a she...and i miss her...and she really does need God...weather she belives it or not Here I Go Again Lyrics--- Father, hear my prayer I need the perfect words Words that he will hear And know they're straight from You I don't know what to say I only know it hurts To see my only friend slowly fade away So maybe this time I'll speak the words of life With Your fire in my eyes But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words What am I so afraid of? Chorus: 'Cause here I go again Talkin 'bout the rain And mulling over things that won't live past today And as I dance around the truth Time is not his friend This might be my last chance to tell him That You love Him But here I go again, here I go again Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son If he will just believe; he will never die But how then will he know what he has never heard Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life This might be my last chance to tell him That You love him This might be my last chance to tell him That You love him You love him, You love him What Am I so afraid What am I so afraid What am I so afraid of? How then will he know What he has never heard Current Mood: excited Current Music: Here I Go Again - Casting Crowns

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11:21 am - CONCERT ROCKED!!! OMG! THE CONCERT WAS THE BEST!!! Marc (the lead singer) is such a funny guy! i love him to death. he said somthing that really had an effect on me...he was talking about your first day of coming to christ and how importent that day is, and how importent the people that helped you on your first day are...and the people taht helped me are sarah and shawn. and im not giving shawn enough credit...i know u said u arnt gonna read this anymore...but i love ya man! and there was this one song that was awesome...it kinda reminded me of me and what i need to do to bring a special friend to christ...i will post the song in a lil...once i get the lyrics... but yeah so i had a blast last night. now im home again...sarah and meg went to the gym. then we are gonna go see raising helen! wooo yaay i gotta go find the lyrics then e-mail shawn ciao Current Mood: grateful Current Music: The Voice of Truth - Casting Crowns

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May 27th, 2004

12:58 pm - Relient K Lyrics ---- Great Songs "What Have You Been Doing Lately?" What have you been doing lately? Your life could use improving greatly. I just wanted to know what's going on, but everything that goes is going wrong. What have you been doing lately? Your life could use improving greatly. I just wanted to know what's going on, but everything that goes is going wrong. When I saw Justin he said he was just in visiting on spring break. I said "What a surprise. You're one of those guys I haven't seen since 1998." We talked for a while, and I tried to smile as he told me about his college life. He parties Fridays through Thursdays (but not for birthdays). He's acquired a taste for Miller Lite. Pardon me while I throw up. I guess some people never grow up. What happened to the salvation you claimed? It breaks my heart to see how much you've changed. It breaks my heart to see how much you've changed. Adn then there's Vanessa. Her life got so messed up. She just can't get along. Her emotions they can't cope, 'cause she's lost all hope. She can't see right from wrong. Rationality left her (or shrunk with her sweater). She's a fanatic. She's over the edge. She needs Lemon Pledge to clear those cobwebs from her attic. "The Rest Is Up To You" I was just about to quote Mark Twain when I realized that it's all in vain. A twist of fate, a twisted look of pain. To defeat the wheat, go against the grain. I know I know I know I know I know what you've been through. But there's only so much one can do. Now the rest is up to you... the rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. Your mentor's become your tormentor. Give him the money, but is it for rent or will you get burnt for the countless time? Your head starts to hurt. You just close your eyes. I know I know I know I know I know what he did to you. But there's only so much on can do. The rest is up to you... the rest is up to you. The rest is up to you. The rest is up to you The rest is up to you The rest is up to you The rest is up to you The rest is up to you This speech is merely words. It's even worse because it rhymes. Give me a minute or your time, I'll have a minute of your time. And I can't make this click. And I can't tattoo your mind. But you know this ain't no trick. Take it or leave it all behind. The rest is up to you (the rest is up to you) The rest is up to you (the rest is up to you) The rest is up to you (the rest is up to you) (Gave my advice, done all I can) The rest is up to you (It's your life, it's in your hands) The rest is up to you (Why don't...) The rest is up to you Why don't you try to slow down? Slow things down. Slow things down. 'Cause I know you're hurting. So put down your burdens. Crucify your doubts and just reach out Reach out to Jesus. Embrace him. Turn your life around to face him. You'll find mercy, you'll see grace, love, and beauty defined in his face. You'll find mercy, you'll see grace, love, and beauty defined in his face. "Failure To Excommunicate" It's the principle it's the issue that your principal would dismiss you. Because you don't fit into that all-American Box. That coffin created for creative thought. It's disgusting his priorities And how we're entrusting him with authority. His gavel's gone down before he looked in your heart. He finished this race(ism) before he reached the start. Jesus loved the outcasts. He loves the ones the world just loves to hate. And as long as there's a heaven, there'll be a failure to excommunicate. The world just keeps you at an arm's length. Every week you work up the strength to fight the flames that are hurled. Let your faith shine right through. You know it's the world versus Jesus and you. It's disgusting, their priorities. And how we're entrusting them with authority. Their gavel's gone down before they looked in your heart. They finished this race(ism). "Less Is More" Jesus, I pray Take all my mistakes Throw them away Destroy them for my sake Jesus, I call out 'cause I'm sorry Because I fall so short of your glory To the best of my ability I'm practicing humility And I lay myself before 'Cause less is more All that I have I lay before With my pride on the floor Cause to you less is more All that I have I lay before With my pride on the floor Cause to you less is more I pour out myself All that I am You love me so much That you fill me again And may these words on my heart, on my lips Somehow mean so much more than this Jesus, I pray Know what I'm trying to say All that I have I lay before With my pride on the floor 'Cause to you less is more All that I have I lay before With my pride on the floor Cause to you less is more I pour out myself, before you were Lord I hold nothing back, 'cause to you less is more And may these words on my heart on my lips, Somehow mean so much more than this Jesus, I pray Just know what I'm tryin' to say Jesus, I plead Please purify me Make my heart clean Drench me with your mercy Jesus, I pray I love you, I need you For the rest of my days I swear I will seek you To the best of my ability I'm practicing humility And I lay myself before 'Cause less is more. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: The Rest is up to you - relient k

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12:53 pm - Vermillion pt. 2 - Slipknot Slipknot has toned it down sooooo much...its CRAZY! Vermillion, Pt. 2 Lyrics ---- She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame. All the torment and the pain Leaked through and covered me I'd do anything ever to myself Just to have her for myself Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad. She is everything to me The unrequited dream A song that no one sings The unattainable. She's a myth that I have to believe in All I need to make it real is one more reason I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad. But I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I catch in my throat Choke, torn into pieces I won't - No I don't want to be this But I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me She isn't real I can't make her real She isn't real I can't make her real Current Mood: impressed Current Music: Vermillion, Pt. 2 Lyrics - Slipknot

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09:18 am - ::yawwwwwwwwn:: summer is quite boring... ok so i wake up today...and i hear two men voices...one being my brother and i couldnt figure out the second one cus i was groggy...i thought it was my dad thou. so i walk out with my felix pj pants on and pink tank top and my hair a mess and guess what it wasnt my dad. IT WAS ROBBIE! for all of u who dont know who robbie is...he is my sisters ex-boyfriend, and my brothers best friend. and he is puerto rican and cuban or somthing...and he is sooooooo F-IN HOT! i swear im gonna marry him...but yuck he saw me all nastay. but thats ok cus he still gave me hug! so im going to see casting crowns today! hurray! sarah is picking me up at like 2:45. cept ryan cant go...cus he faught with his mommy. i kinda told him about Make Waves thou, and he said he is like 10 min away from that water park...and he will try to go there. which could be a good thing...it could help him become a christian somehow. so i already said summer is boring...but it seriously BITES! LOL...i need a pool, and a life. tehehehe at least im getting out and doing sumthing tonite! my brother told me to stop sleeping with my contacts in. cus he used to and he went to the eye doctor and they showed him pictures of wut his eyes will look like if he keeps doing it...he said they will look like ground beef....EWWW GROSS! I DO NOT WANT MY EYES TO LOOK LIKE THAT! so i guess i really do needa stop sleeping with them in! i need to figure out wut im wearing into the car...prolly my basketball shorts and the shirt im wearing today. tralalala ok im getting to the point where this is pointless...nothing left to bore u with ciao Current Mood: groggy Current Music: something corporate - i want to save you

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May 26th, 2004

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